I once heard, in order for God to use you, one needs to be broken. I have never fully understood this concept until now. I see through my brokenness, he has allowed healing, restoration, and wholeness to manifest itself in my life. During my time in the ICU, the old Sarah was laid to rest and God brought me into a new life. 2 Corinthians 5:17 says, “Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold the new has come!”
Every area of my life that was unwholesome, sinful, lacking, or broken has been made whole, forgiven, abundant, and fixed. Many of you know my relationship with my father was lacking. That relationship has been restored. My finances were lacking and my every need was met. My heart had suffered so much brokenness and now, I have never felt so whole. I had a period of living in sin and my slate has been wiped cleaned. I had relationships in my life that were poisin to me and I have had the strength to walk away. Not because they are bad people, but simply because they were leading me away from walking with my Lord. I was without so much and he provided ten fold. I am not perfect. I am nowhere near being so. But because of grace, I have been given a second chance to live this life. Romans 6:4 states, I was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, so now I will do everything in my power to walk in this newness of life.
I am not going to sit here and pretend that everything is perfect and life is great. I struggle with this newness of life constantly. I struggle with excepting that I was given another chance. This has been a very difficult road for me to tread and some mornings I can’t do anything but sit and cry in amazement that I am able to wake up to another day. The fact that I am able to walk, sing, and feel the warmth of the sun on my skin or the brisk of the cold air. I am in a constant state of gratefulness and I think that is a pretty good place to start.
So if you notice a new glow or something different about me, know that it is the doing of Jesus Christ. I am a walking miracle. I am a living example of the power of prayer, of his power and strength, and of his unending grace and love.